Somebody

I want somebody to share

Share the rest of my life

Share my innermost thought

Know my intimate details

Someone who'll stand by my side

And give me support

And in return

He'll get my support

He will listen to me

When I want to speak

About the world we live in

And life in general

Though my views may be wrong

They may even be perverted

He will hear me out

And won't easily be converted

To my way of thinking

In fact he'll often disagree

But at the end of it all

He will understand me

I want somebody who cares

For me passionately

With every thought and with every breath

Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light

All the things I detest

I will almost like

I don't want to be tied

To anyone's strings

I'm carefully trying to steer clear

Of those things

But when I'm asleep

I want somebody

Who will put their arms around me

And kiss me tenderly

Though things like this

Make me sick

In a case like this

I'll get away with it

Depeche Mode

*. dengan sedikit perubahan. Lagu ini buat "somebody". Yes. i really need somebody. :')

aku sepi.

sepi sendiri

aku bosan

bosan selalu sendiri

aku rindu

ricuh ramai hiruk pikuk

rindu hangat canda tawa

rindu kebersamaan

rindu keberadaan

aku sendiri

aku bdrdua namun sendiri

aku bdramai-ramai terasa sendiri.

aku bosan dengan sepi

bosan sendiri

mereka bilang aku hebat

bisa berjalan sendiri

berlarian kesana kemari sendiri

aku tidak hebat

berjalan,brrlari atau mati ditempat

tidak banyak pilihan

sesungguhnya,

aku mulai benci sendiri.

aku sepi

sepi dan sendiri aku benci.

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SONNET XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. 

-Pablo Neruda-

i don't even know, how can i fall for you, when everything starts, or where it begin.

i love you, without any considering about our age gap.

i love you, just it.

If

if i can give the world to you, i will..

if i need to smile even it hurts, i will..

if all i can do is this, i will never stop.

Saking capenya kemarin, tau-tau otak jadi jernih banget dan g menyadari kalo selama ini g bener-bener sucks. Mesti usaha lebih keras lagi Cella. meski nguatin niat lagi. mesti nabung ngumpulin modal buat married..

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Ingin ini, ingin itu, banyak sekali..

Tadi pas jalan-jalan di Empo, g menyadari satu hal. Those make-up thingy isn't suit me, apalagi nail art. Beh.. Liat ni kuku g. Messy banget. Berantakan najong. Hahahaha. Ntah apa yang bikin g kemarin beli NYX Crimson Amulet pallete yang mahal itu. And i swear, that will be my last pallete. for this year *grinning*.
Tapi beneran ih, beginian ga cocok banget sama g. G ga suka prinsip "Cantik itu butuh pengorbanan". Raanya mulai sekarang, g ga mau lagi melakukan sesuatu yang menyusahkan. Kayak repot-repot pake eyeshadow. Dandan natural aja udah lebih dari cukup. Toh Ipin juga ga pernah protes, malah kliatannya dia ga suka-suka amat tuh kalo cewenya berlenong ria. hehehe
Mungkin sekarang g bakal balik ke style g yang dulu, sporty cuek alias sebodo-amat-g-mau-pake-apa-bukan-urusan-lu. Mau beli sendal gunung lagi. Mau beli sepatu nike buat lari *yes! i think i'm starting in love with this run-thingy*. Mau beli sport bra. Mau camera underwater. Mau MP3 palyer baru!! Hahaaha. Ga mau lagi deh cari flat shoes. Moyung. Nanti aja kalo mau kerja. Sekarang cukup pake kets. :)
Tapi kalo skin care, bakal tetep g jalanin, berasa loh. Lebih mulus dan glowy. hihihihi *centil najong*.
Btw, 4 hari lagi g bakal lari loh. My very first running event. Lari 10km. hehehe. Makanya pengen beli bra sport nih. Mau yang ijo. Tapi mahaall... T.T Duit g uda cekak gara-gara si Crimson itu. hiks. Apa g jual aja ya? Iyaaaa!!!! Bener-bener.. g jual 240k. Ada yang mau ga ya? uda g jual rugi tuh. Lumayan buat nambah duit jajan ke Bali nanti. hehehe.
Ngomong-ngomong Bali, g juga pengen beli tankini. Baju renang g kan item one piece yang monoton abis. Penegnnya bikini sih. Tapi kayaknya dengan lemak bertebaran dimana-mana, bisa dikubur dalem pasir sama Ipin kali. hahahha. Mungkin kalo tu Crimson jadi dijual, bakal g rubah jadi tankini. :D
oiya, sebelum bertobat dari make-up thingy, sepertinya g masih akan beli 2-3 barang lagi. *grinning*

101 things to do

i got this book at Times karawaci with a good price. hehehe.. harusnya 180k, jadi cm 90k. Tadinya bingung mau  beli atau ga. Trus kata ipin, this is worth to buy bNget. dy malah bilang, biar ga sale kalo dy pasti rela. hahaha...

bukunya oke bnget. listnya sangat menarik. bikin hidup lebih hidup. Target g sih ga muluk. 80 of 101! :)

1. Write a Best-seller
2. Swim With...
   1. Sharks
   2. Whales
   3. Dolphins
   4. Tropical Fish
3. Win an Award, Trophy or Prize
4. Catch a Fish With Your Bare Hands
5. Make a Discovery
6. Throw a House Party While Your Parents Are Out
   
7. Be Part of a Threesome
8. Realise Your Childhood Dream
9. Learn That Instrument
10. Leave Your Mark in Graffiti
11. Storm Chase a Tornado
12. Get a Piece of Art into an Exhibition
13. Meet Someone with your Own Name
14. Ride the World's Biggest Rollercoasters
    1. Top Thrill Dragster, Cedar Point, Ohio
    2. Steel Dragon 2000, Nagashima Spa Land, Japan
    3. Colossus, Thorpe Park, England
    4. Superman the Escape, Six Flags Magic Mountain, California
    5. Incredible Hulk, Universal Studios Island of Adventure, Florida
    6. Son of the Beast, Paramount's Kings Island, Ohio
15. Stage Dive or Crowd Surf
16. Get Into the Guinness Book of World Records
    
17. Own a Pointless Collection
18. Study the Kama Sutra and Put Theory into Practice
19. Master Poker and Win Big in a Casino
20. Get Backstage and Get Off with a Rock God
21. Be a Human Guinea Pig
22. Go Up in a Hot Air Balloon
23. Get Arrested
24. See a Space Shuttle Launch
25. Capture the Moment in an Award-winning Photograph
26. Bunjy Jump
    
27. See an Erupting Volcano
28. Sky Dive
29. Meet Your Idol
30. Stay in the Best Suite in a Five Star Hotel
31. Experience Weightlessness
32. See the Aurora Borealis
33. Get to Score a Hole in One
34. Design Your Own Cocktail
35. Play a Part in Your Favourite TV Show
36. Visit Every Country Continent
    1. Asia
    2. Antarctica
    3. North America
    4. Europe
       
    5. Australasia
    6. South America
    7. Africa
37. Make Fire Without Matches
38. See These Animals in the Wild...
    1. Panda
    2. Rhino
    3. Hippo
    4. Grizzly Bear
    5. Elephant
    6. Hummingbird
    7. Giraffe
    8. Koala
    9. Manatee
    10. Gorilla
    11. Lion
    12. Monkey
    13. Penguin
    14. Kangaroo
    15. Tiger
    16. Crocodile
    17. Orangutan
    18. Eagle
    19. Polar Bear
    20. Coelacanth
39. Go to the Dogs
40. Get a Free Upgrade on a Plane
41. Be Friends With an Ex
    
42. Hit Your Targets
43. Throw a Dart into a Map and Travel to Where it Lands
44. Attend a Film Premiere
45. Do a Runner From a Fancy Restaurant
46. Scuba Dive
47. Milk a Cow
48. Be Present When Your Country Wins the World Cup
49. See Both Solar and Lunar Eclipses
50. Write Your Name Over a Star on the Walk of Fame
51. Learn Another Language
52. Read The Greatest Book Ever Written
    
53. Complete a Coast to Coast Road Trip Across America
54. Make at Least One Huge Purchase You Can't Afford
55. Score the Winning Goal/Try/Basket
56. Gatecrash a Fancy Party
57. See the All Time Greatest Film
    
58. Live in the Place You Love
59. Leave a Job You Hate
60. Take Part in a Police Line-up
61. Get Away with the Perfect Practical Joke or Hoax
62. Join the Mile High Club
63. Make the Front Page of a National Newspaper
64. Drive a Car at Top Speed
65. Shout 'Drinks Are on Me!' in a Pub or Bar
66. Be Part of a Flash Mob
67. Visit...
    1. Colosseum, Rome, Italy
    2. Uluru, Australia
    3. Machu Picchu, Peru
    4. The Pyramids at Giza, Egypt
    5. Christ the Redeemer, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
    6. Sydney Harbour, Australia
    7. Taj Mahal, Delhi, India
    8. Great Barrier Reef, Australia
    9. Golden Gate Bridge, San Francisco
    10. Grand Canyon, Arizona
    11. Angor Wat, Cambodia
    12. The Great Wall of China
68. Save Someone's Life
69. In Various Languages, Learn to...
70. Invent a Word That Makes it into the Dictionary
71. Have Adventurous Sex
72. Have Enough Money to Do All the Things on This List
73. Stand on the International Date Line
74. Learn to Fly a Plane
75. Get a Tattoo and/or a Piercing
76. Invent Something
77. Learn Astronomy and Read the Night Sky
78. Drink a Vintage Wine
79. Answer a Personal Ad
80. Spend Christmas on the Beach
81. Get Barred From a Pub or Bar
82. Builds Your Own House
83. Skinny Dip at Midnight
    
84. Sell All Your Junk on eBay and Make a Profit
85. Visit the World's Tallest Buildings
    1. Burj Dubai, Dubai, United Arab Emirate
    2. Russia Tower, Moscow, Russia
    3. Freedom Tower, New York
    4. Taipei 101, Taiwan
    5. Shanghai World Financial Center, Shanghai, China
    6. International Commerce Centre, Hong Kong
    7. Petronas Towers, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
    8. Sears Tower, Chicago
    9. Jin Mao Building, Shanghai, China
    10. Two International Finance Centre, Hoong Kong
    11. Citic Plaza, Guangzhou, China
    12. Shun Hing Square, Shenzhen, China
    13. Empire State Building, New York
    14. Central Plaza, Hong Kong
    15. Bank of China Tower, Hong Kong
86. Run a Marathon
87. Conquer Your Fear
88. Get Married Unusually
89. Throw Away the Instant Noodles
90. Join the 16-Mile High Club
91. Publish a Cult Website
92. Own an Original Work of Art
93. Complete the Monopoly Board Pub Crawl
94. Get Something Named After You
95. Get Revenge
96. Be an Extra in a Film
97. Live Out of a Van
98. Go on a Demonstration
    
99. Confess
100. Reach 100 Years of Age
101. Continue Your Gene Pool

sebagian rational, sebagian ajaib. well, life is an adventure kn? :)

My new addiction

Ah, rasanya begini toh jadi remaja baru puber? *kedipkedipcentil*

Belakangan ini, g sering sekali ngabisin duit buat beli barang-barang beauty kit gitu, macam make-up, skin care, hair care, etc. Barang-barang gitulah pokoknya. Di rumah g aja sekarnag ada 4 botol sabun beda-beda bau, yang untungnya g masih punya kesadaran untuk ga buka semuanya. Cuma 2 doang. hahaha

Beneran deh, ini doyanan baru yang wasting money banget. hahaha.. pengen ini itu tapi kaga dipake kemana-mana. Mau pake kemana jg bingung. Mana si pacar juga cuek-cuek aja, malah cenderung ga doyan cewe muka dempul, semakin bingunglah g. Dan akhirnya begini deh. Uda mentok sampe barang yang bisa dipkae sehari-hari, yah.. kecuali ada 1 lipstik merah oke banget yang ntah kapan baru akan g pake jalan-jalan.

Trus gara-gara sekarang baca online shop di fb dan punya klik bca juga, semakin gatel lah g  buat belanja. Aaahhhhh.. Bayangin aja, bulan ini g punya 16 kutek baru. hahaha. Yang terakhir g bli 12 biji sekaligus, abisnya cuma 100k sih, trus sekarang g bingung kapan itu semua mau dipake. Untungnya sih warnanya oke-oke. unyu-unyu juga. AAhh Cella. Kamu bener-bener centil ya nak sekarang. Doyan dandan, dan lebih sadar diri. Dan hari ini g kepikiran buat beli anti-wrinkle. huahahahaha

Trus sekarang g punya beauty routino loh. Tiap malem pake body lotion sama lipbalm. Seminggu 2x masker ini itu, creambath sana sini, scrub-an atas bawah. Ngefek ga? ada sih.. hehehe. Kulit kakinya jadi ga pecah lagi (kalo ini mungkin juga gara-gara g uda meninggalkan sepatu gunung dan selalu pake sepatu sejak minggu lalu), mukanya lebih glowing kl kt mama, jd lebih cerah, trus kulit kaki yang biasa kayak ubi itu jadi lebih lembut. Bagus-bagus.. Kalo ga ada hasilnya apa gunannya g cape-cape ngerepotin diri. :D

Minggu depan si pacar ultah, dan masih ga tau kapan bisa beli kadonya. Mau ngapain juga masih ngawang-ngawang. hehehe. Yah, ditunggu saja nanti jadinya apa. :)